I am notorious for thinking to myself, “Hmmm… when should I really buckle down with my diabetes?” The answer has been “tomorrow” or “not yet” for about 10 years now. (As of April 2013, it will be 10 years!) I know what you’re thinking… “HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE? TEN YEARS? Get with it, Briana!” You know, it’s not like I have not put up a good fight for a month or two here or there! I find myself discouraged, tired, sick… grasping for a moldy P & J sandwich in the dark of the night during a relentless attack of low blood sugar. (true story) Many reasons and factors, stages of life, and “justifiable slip-ups” have occurred, and I have let them kick me down. I will not make this decision out of guilt. I will not make this decision because I “think I should.” I will make this decision because God has already decided it. He gave me diabetes as a gracious gift. I do not understand that statement entirely, but I want to. I know that God has planned “all things [to] work together for [MY] good! (Rom 8:28 ESV)
It is time to put my excuses and drama aside. Diabetes control (and really, acceptance) has not happened, but I am committing here, to my cyber audience of friends and family, and hopefully some day fellow diabloggers, to begin TODAY.