Jots and Tittles

I have been frightfully silent for the past week, though many things to say have been whirling around in my head!  I actually went to Starbucks with the intention of writing on the Wednesday after the hurricane.  BIG MISTAKE!  When I got there I remembered that all schools had been cancelled and half the city was without the internet.  It was packed.  After the Barista called, “tall, extra-hot, upside-down caramel macchiato” (my heart fills with joy at the mention of it!) I stood there with two bags and looked kinda sweet but also pathetic in hopes someone would want to rescue me from my seatless plight, but they were all too busy drinking their favorite drinks and typing on their computers to notice! I even entertained the idea of sitting outside on the cold, wet patio furniture, but sense seized me and I headed back to the car.  That is a very long and somewhat dramatic tale, all to say, writing has been on my mind, but not the top of my to-do.

Last week was sensational!  Using the CGM was literally all that it was “cracked up to be!”  Constant feedback is so helpful and encouraging.  It also, undoubtedly, leads to much better control.  I did have to write everything down last week.. everything.  Mood, activity levels, snacks, meals, carb counts, stress levels, (who can tell??) and anything else I thought relevant.  I was dreading it a little, but it just became part of my routine and I didn’t mind it.  I didn’t love it, but I didn’t mind it.  There was satisfaction in knowing that my jots and tittles would help my doctor help me.    I was able to talk to a Dexcom representative that it trying to help us figure out how my insurance would cover a Dexcom CGM for me–I gave her all the information a thought I knew only to find out later that I didn’t actually know it.  From now on, I think I’ll pass those calls along to Ben.  He’s on top of that stuff! (Thanks, Honey!)  Basically, as soon as I get a hold of this lady again, I should have a Dexcom as soon as the US Postal service can accommodate–with no cost to us personally. This is another reason to PRAISE GOD for Ben’s job even though the hours are difficult to handle sometimes.  God has perfectly guided our steps here.  I am thankful for the whole picture even though I can only see a corner of it right now.

“The heart of the man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.”

Proverbs 16:9 ESV

I would not choose even some of the steps in the current stage of my journey.  I want what I want because I want it–I want it to be different–and I want it NOW! But when God gently reminds me that He wants the ultimate best for me–His best–I can rejoice in the stages of life He brings.  He truly is my Good Shepherd!

“The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures.

He leads me beside still waters.

He restores my soul.

He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fear no evil,

for You are with me;

your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;

You anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

ALL the days of my life,

and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD forever.”

Psalm 23 ESV

I must not let the familiarity of these words breed contempt!  He leads, protects, cares and provides for, and gives goodness and mercy to me.

  Following where He leads is an amazing privilege and honor. 

He is a joy to follow.

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**CGM**

Yesterday, I went to visit the doctor’s office again!  Before, I thought that the doctor was talking about getting a whole new insulin pump, and my week-trial would be with a new insulin pump, but it was actually for a new CGM system.  CGM is stands for Continuous Glucose Monitoring — basically, it is a small device that goes partially under the skin with a small piece of technology (for lack of a better word) above.  The small catheter under the skin takes BG (blood glucose) readings every 5 minutes.  Through this, it is more possible to accurately track patterns in BG and prevent problems in either direction.  This technology will be especially helpful for me because it will help my doctor see my body’s specific patterns.  Also, I can see where by BG is headed: if I get a reading of 105 ^ ^ I would react differently than a reading of 105 > or with an arrow downward.  I can catch highs or lows before they happen.  This will be wonderful, if I am able to get it covered by insurance.  Some people may know that I have already tried something similar to this in the past, but discontinued use—it was NOT user friendly, and that is what my doctor was so adamant about!  I have only had it on since 1:00 pm yesterday, but so far I already like it much more than the previous one.

Here is a site that  explains more about the CGM I am using specifically.

http://www.diabetespumpcgm.com/dexcom-g4-platinum-cgm/?gclid=CJmh_PbHobMCFUWo4Aodnh4A7w

Even with the positive prospects of this new technology, I find myself a little overwhelmed with all of it.  I am still testing and keeping track of everything.  I’m not discouraged.  But I woke up at 56 (LOW!) then I covered as I usually would and it spiked to 388 ^ ^ (which means still rising) about 1.5 hours later, which literally was “explainable” going off of my actions (low-carb breakfast) alone.  It’s days like these that would derail me.  I am not, I will not give up!

I need strength today.

“Be strong and courageous.  Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”

Joshua 1:9 (ESV)

“Blessed be the Lord, who daily bears us up; God is our Salvation.”

Psalm 68:19 (ESV)